Nightmares

I've been having nightmares for three consecutive nights, and now I'm afraid to sleep.

It's always been the same, or similar.


There were scoldings, beatings and snide remarks thrown at me by my love one. And the entire dream would be all of that, or the night would be split into two separate nightmares of different story lines but similar scoldings and violence.

I had been waking up every morning in frowns creased over my brows, clenching heart and a really foul mood. Or a distressed mood.

The sort of rotten feeling you would get when you've been wronged in all the wrong ways, by someone you love. A sort of upsetting anger with a mixture of heartache and sorrow.

It's affecting my days and I simply don't want to do anything. And want to give up everything.

My travels. My work. My blog. My FB and twitter. My books. Even my phone and conservations with friends.

Ever had your heart broken? And the feeling would leave you handicap in every possible thing from thinking to eating?

I'm feeling that right now.

:(